I don't know if I have ever bid farewell to any year ending. Yet there's a certain fondness that I feel of this passing year. Two thousand and thirteen has probably been my best year thus far, but I can't exactly pin point why. When I think about it, with all the stuff that has happened this year, financially, emotionally and family stuff, it really should be my worst. But I think there's a beauty in all that, I've learned to love my life and self regardless of my surroundings. And also I've learned that it is absolutely okay to feel vulnerable and similarly feel confident. This blog is going in a new direction… Ok maybe not so much a new direction as it is a greater inclusion of different things that embody who I am. Like ShamelessMaya, I've decided to be more shameless in the way that I love myself and others. More shameless in being okay at where I'm at. More shameless in how I pursue my goals.
Secondly, you guys, man *sniff*. I've met so many amazing people through this blog, people that I've learned to call my own friends. Beautiful women right here that I've never met in real life, but look up to and hope to meet up with some time in the future. I've never really known the 'stress' that comes with blogging, because for so long it's been something I just 'do'. And having you guys there along the way has made it all more worth it. So *ahem* *clears throat*
I'm a little rubbish with emotional stuff, but I really want to thank you all for being here. No I really do, this isn't some vague thank you or superficial gratitude. Honestly, thank you. I've been doing this since I was 16 years old, and back then I needed a place of my own to vent and figure things out. Subsequently, I'd always said that this blog was for me and me only, I guess to escape responsibility. Well I want to claim full responsibility and be able to influence from now on, be responsible for the things I put out. I'm 21 now, so obviously I'm not in the same place that I was when I was 16. I've changed. And I have no obligation to stay who I was 5 years ago.
WHO AM I TO DENY CHANGE OR GROWTH? THE VERY FOUNDATION OF MY SURVIVAL LOOKS TO IT.
Anyway the gist of this whole post is, thank you and please don't be afraid of change. Heck, look at me, if you would've asked me only 2 years ago if I'd be wearing brightly coloured clothes and posing in front of a camera, I probably would've laughed. Hard. My camera shyness was so bad that from ages 10-15 I have practically no photos of myself. It's sad really, now that I think about it. But I'm not lingering on the past anymore. I'm moving into 2014 ready to take my fears by the horn and shake it all about. Looking at these photos of me I can't help but feel a little warm. Whaaaaat, Sherida with her legs out?? Whaaaat Sherida in front of a camera?? Whaaaaat Sherida looking directly at the camera with no long fringe covering her eyes?? Neverrrrr. Haha.
Anywho, lets all raise our glasses for an even more incredible year and even more incredible shoes in 2014 *wink wink*
CHEERS, MY LOVES.